Oh well, here I go again . Almost to the end of the month and just thinking backwards to the things I had done previously over the last 4 weeks then moving forward to the next date & time.

Hmmmm, where do I start ?  I guess to the time I had my new creations  being designed  and having each and every item labelled , priced accordingly and uploaded to their specific albums. I still got a few pieces unfinished , oh dear ! . But naahhhh... it won't be such a big problem coz I still got almost a little bit over 1- 1/2 months before I have the items put on display and for sale at the "The Subiaco Craft and Community Fair" scheduled for October 28 , 2012. So fingers crossed that I'll have all my latest designs finished , ready &  included in my Jewelry Booth #162 located just right by the1st  main entrance of the said event along Hackett Drive.

#GBN103= Sea Princess AUD$140

#GBN102= Esmeralda AUD$75

Esmeralda Earrings $45

#CCUFF38= Sparkling Peridot  AUD$50

 

Saturday 4th of August ~ 9:00 am ,  being awakened up in the morning by daughter asking me to inform my friend Dolores that she's not going to ride with them to the film school in Malaga today . Hubby had decided to take her instead since it is a good sunny day. Fine with me so I dialed Dolores' number and told her about the change of events. So a new task was done as soon as i got out of bed.

I went to sleep around 1am last night coz I was busy making a few sets of necklaces with matching earrings for my Teens / Kids' Collection all reasonably priced @AUD$25 including Gift Box.

 I have a new event to attend to but I'm starting to increase my reserve of new stocks so I can cater from any ages as soon as the fair begins. So, whether young or old, there's something to get for everyone.

The fair is still for October but I better start preparing in advance coz it's again one of the biggest Gift's Fair for Western Australia.

I had attended it last year and it was such a great experience for me being out there as part of the whole event. So i had decided to come again and join them once again. By the way , my stall will be beside the Hackett Drive 1 Entrance . Look for me at Stall #162 "My-SECRET-Corner" with a table banner so visible you'll see me from afar . LOL!
You will easily see me as the first table on your left once you enter .

 Lots of people , new found vendor friends and being a first timer in an Australian Bazaar, I got new ideas from the locals as well .

The Subiaco Craft and Community Fair presented by the Rotary Club of Matilda Bay will this year be held on

Sunday, 28th October 2012

• To be held at the Oak Lawn, University of Western Australia, Hackett Drive, Crawley
• 190 stalls selling original craft
• Lots of entertainment
• Food
• Free parking
• Raffles
• Gold coin donation only ($2) for public entry
• And lots more



I was sitting infront of my beading table last week while at the same time I was wondering why it took me so long to be back to beading again. I had been away from my favorite place for a few months and I guess some works had piled up .  Opppsssss !

I was just back from my 1 month holidays and I was still taking things in a slow pace . Ugghhhhhh !

But my hands won't stop me from doing things specially knowing I had not created any jewelry over the last 2-3 months. Makes me sad to see my piles of beads untouched for a long period of time.

I grabbed my pliers and sat on my revolving chair with my brains also rolling from side to side while staring at my boxes of beads. Ok ... I found some lampwork beads I had not seen for a while and they gave me an idea to wire wrap for some bracelets and earrings. I was thinking of the month of August as a theme to start with. Peridot is the green stone associated with this month's birthstone and also reffered to as the "Evening Emerald ". So I made a charm bracelet paired with matching set of dangle earrings with Peridot color Glass beads.

Oh well, I ended up getting my nail polish ruined and chipped off during my wire wrapping but it's ok. I am happy to see the end results anyway. So I had a day of rest after my fingers were aching from too much wiring , ouch, ouch , ouch !

But then, an unscheduled trip to the magazine shop the other day jump started my desire to work harder on my beads again after seeing my favorite Beading magazines in the rack.. I was happy to find and buy the June 2012 edition of "Bead & Button"  & latest  copies of Australia's Favorite " Creative Beading " magazine that moment. I was so excited to look inside the pages that I sat down in a cafe opposite the magazine shop to browse immediately while I was waiting for my kidss to get off from school. My Latte had cooled down due to the fact I had been so engrossed looking at the new designs and color themes in each and every page that I had forgotten about my coffee ha-ha .

 Wow... so beautiful and spectacular pieces !

 I do admire them all .

June 2012~ Travelling from Perth To Singapore then to Manila on June 18th 2012 was almost a full day of travel starting from 5am in the morning on board hubby's car to Perth Airport with sleepy kids. They accomppanied me for my send off. Kind of sad departure coz I was travelling alone that morning to Singapore while later in the afternoon , kids will also fly to Singapore as un- accomppanied minors enroute to Belgium. Not the 1st time they would be travelling without me but daughter was crying and very sentimental when we parted as I went into immigration holding my hand carried luggage full of extra clothes and guess what ? no beads at all ! OMG ... 1st time I move away without any single bead in my stuffs. This must be a real holiday !

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Singapore Airlines Business class cabin was comfortable being seated beside the window so I can see the view of Singapore as we land. Food seemed good but I was way too tired to eat so I didn't touch any of it and tried to get some much needed sleep instead. Almost 6 hrs flight to Singapore was quite long so I tried to get some rest.The stop over in Singapore was just quick so I  had a short stay at the lounge to grab something to eat to fill up my empty stomach. I didn't eat any breakfast in the plane from Perth to Singapore. I was so hungry I gulped on some hot soup with noodles in a flash. Then off to the next flight which was Singapore to Manila. I wasn't carrying not much hand carry but my bag was enough to give strain on my already achin back. I was feelin very sick the whole time I was in the plane from Singpore that I asked the flight attendants to give me some paracetamol for my bombarding headache. I was very dizzy I was not able to eat my lunch. I felt so sick i wanted to pyuk. Agghhhhhhhhhh!

I was given 2 pieces of DHAMOL and the attendant reclined my seat so i can lay down . She gave me more pillows to lay my head on. She told me to lay down and have a rest. I thought I'm brewing a fever coz my headache was getting worst that I couldn't sleep. The noise of the plane was echoing in my ears ... it was deafening. It was so painful for my head I felt like passing out.

Arrival in NAIA in Manila was a total disaster. My first destination out of the plane was a quick dash to the nearest toilet and threw up. I was very very dizzy that the lady cleaner wanted to help me walk all the way to immigration to help me after i washed my face with cold water. I told her I can still manage and I searched my bag for the box of PANADOL extra strenght paracetamol I had bought in Changi Airport , Singapore .



 Dhamol given by the flight crew of Singapore Airlines didn't help me at all ! Shame ....

The queues for immigration counters were all over the place. There are several flights that arrived all at the same time that all counters were working double time to accommodate all incoming passengers. Shocking moment for foreign travellers to be greeted by long waiting time and no clue where to line up. I'm so tensed coz i need to get away fast and be out of the terminal for the final trip of the day...  my province that would take another 2-3 hours of travel by car . I was able to get out of airport at 6:30 pm and my brother with my neighbor were there to pick me up . I was relieved i can already travel to my home immediately.



 Laguna ... here I come at last !


And what a big surprise to see new additions to my home when I finally arrived around 10pm ... My adopted dog Yula have 2 puppies of 2 weeks old !
They're so cute !



Presently , i  had already been here a week , staying in my place here in Laguna,Philippines , but, I had seen the local way of life i used to have immediately after the 1st few days . Kids on streets ... playing with whatever .. stones.. leaves,,, papers or just anything they can pick up to use as toys... even pieces of  crap like broken plastic pipes or sticks of wood !


No matter how poor life is ... kids are happy to play with very little things they could find on the street or within their environment. There's no limit in their imaginations . Other people's crap can be other people's treasures indeed !
This is a very awesome way to spend my holidays ... get inspirations from very simple things in life ... drawn from the very young children that surrounds me day by day.



What makes them happy & to see them happy .. is what makes me feel so happy as well and be thankful to be here for my vacation.
 I'm glad I'm here to watch them ... and being here to share the nice moments with them .



This is absolutely one of the best vacation i would ever have ...

 



I was getting ready to make lunch last Sunday 26th February when hubby came to the fridge to get a drink. As he opens the door , he told me that we have to go to Belgium by the end of this week inorder to say goodbye to his father and he started crying like a baby infront of me. I was stunned coz I thought his father had died. But he immediately said that he got only a month to live and we have to come to say goodbye to him before it's too late. It was a shocking news but I knew it would come one of these months but didn't expect to be this soon though.

Hubby n I were not  speaking to each other and I don't even look at him even when we live in the same house for over a year now. Our relationship had gone down from being married to worst enemies. It's better that way coz I now finally got so tired of forgiving over n over again !

I can't help myself bursting into tears just like him so I went to the laundry area and cried my eyes out . My father in law is such a great guy and he's been very nice to me all these years. He 's the one I had confided with when any problems arise between his son & I. I would say that he'd been by far a great person in his heart & mind. To see him in his death bed must be the hardest thing I could ever imagine happening for me and the rest of the family . It's so heartbreaking to see the good ones go in a very painful manner.




 He's been very sick since last year but he tried his very best and  with his will power  , he was able to manage to come to Perth for his last holiday . His aim was to see his son and  grandchildren and spend some moments with us. He & His wife took the risk of travelling for several hours from Belgium to Perth and endured all consequences despite of his illness just to spend his precious time bonding with us.




In fact, mother in law was also not so well after her previous surgery. She herself was also trying her best to feel physically good when in fact she has to be cared for. Pepe was very attentive with her needs all the while during their stay here. How he loves her dearly. She is one very lucky woman to have found a great man like Pepe.



Although unfortunately, their stay here in Perth wasn't that all good despite of the travel we made to Margaret River for family bonding. The tensions of trying to hide my feelings and blending with them as a family just hits me to the core. I felt so bad being put in a situation of smiling or trying to look happy when in fact i am not at all when in the company of their son. To be in the same room with him is like being in a cage of hell. I just hate his presence. I was so unhappy that I had spent most of my time in Margaret river being away from them. Keeping myself busy making my passion that served as my constant solution for the on & off palpitations , stress & anxiety i was having during those moments.






 For me .. it's the best time for their son to pay his respects for them as his parents. He owed them a lot in this world so he needed the bonding with them much more than anyone else.

Being in Margaret River gave my parents in law the biggest eye opener for them to see what's the real score between hubby & I.  They tried to ignore what they had seen happening within our relationship but deep inside I know that they're crying in each others arms at the end of the day in the privacy of their room. I had felt their sadness too and how it breaks my heart to see them suffer in silence just to hide things from my children. But life has to go on ... especially for me who is constantly finding a solution on my own to all my grievances. I still got time to do things in my life and I guess I need to set my feet forward for them to know that time , emotional / mental abuse and heartaches had transformed me into a totally new person . Someone real strong in character fighting & voicing out her feelings unlike before being as a person helplessly crying in a corner all the time and giving in to everyone else's wishes. That woman had long gone ...




Indeed it's soulbreaking but this is the moment they have to finally realize that our marriage isn't what it was before. It's not a bag full of roses anymore but of thorns poking into ourselves each time we're near each other. A lot had changed since we had moved in Perth from Singapore. About time they realize I had given up on the hope of keeping my marriage going . It takes 2 to Tango as a cliche goes and I was the only one dancing to the tunes so ... I just got so tired after a while. Not worth to sacrifice myself anymore for the convenience of others around me. My position in life is not to live life for the convenience of others thru my expense. I need the respect I deserve for the sacrifices I had given. That's my point and my life is not supposed to be tailor made to fit theirs according to their lifestyle... a truth that's surely like a bomb exploding into everyone's minds at this moment. I hardly speak of anything for myself ever since but now ,,, I just have to do it while I still have the time and opportunity to say so while people can hear me. Painful truth but being honest is how people would realize the kind of person I am.

Anyways, I'm gonna start packing our bags today & tomorrow for the trip to Belgium this coming Thursday 1st of March. This is probably the most memorable trip I would ever had in my life. To finally say goodbye to someone so good & respectful. Not easy but I will try to keep my head up most of the times but surely,,, I won't hold my tears back. A good man is worth every tear drop I still have left inside my eyes.

So to our  most dearest Pepe ( as we fondly call him ) ... may your precious time be filled with moments of joys and happiness with your loved ones who lovingly care for you ... I do wish from the bottom of my heart that you have the  eternal peace  & happiness you surely deserve ...
and don't worry,
things would work out ok for everyone ... 
One day will come when we would all reach the end of our own journey ... with contentment and no regrets I hope
It's just a matter of racing against time to get all the necessary changes done ... right here ... right now .






May Peace Be With You 
Always ...

Wella